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i wont be made useless, wont be idle with dispair!
2005-06-30 - 3:06a.m.

hmm. gosh im tired. just finished typing out the dance stuff. still ahve to do some maths hmw
sigh. when is my day going to end man?
ive been up since six. and it looks like ill probably wont get to sleep until twelve tmr night.
this stinks. ahwell.
my mind feels really awake now. but my body is just about to collapse.
its already three plus and i just finished with my physics file, lit hmw, dance thingy and more physics stuff!
oh and i had dance in the afternooon thats probably why my body feels all sore. ahvent danced in like two months!
my muscles felt really tense. and that back ache i had on tuesday is still there. its spreading to my fingertips and it hurts when i write now.
i need sleep!!!
but im too scared to sleep cos if i sleep now right, i probably wont be able to get up in the morning!
and i have a ltc meeting at seven tmr
that means waking up extra early so i see no point in sleeping.
oh yes but i do have history for first period.
GGGREEEEAAAAT.
ah. i hate this first wekk of school man
im so stressed! so much to do. collect chem files, hand in physics, do dance cpreadhseet thingy, some mentee stuff, catching up on remedial lessons i missed during the hols, catching up on tuition classes and piano lessons i missed because of the three consecutive camps i had, chasing people for money.. again., LTC meetings, maths project, amaths file..
the list just goes on and on and on
i feel so disorganised.
whoever said being wonderfully tired must be joking.
anyway.on a brighter note!
dance today was funn! yay! havent we covered that already? oh yes. but it was. even though my grp isnt doing the chorus line thing. but ITS OKAY!
street jazz is coool
oh yes. i cant seemt o find my phone charger. dont know where i put it! or if someone in my house took it. (this is very very likely)
theres a knot in my hair. ow. i just tugged at it. ahaha
okay. i have nothing to say but this is fun cos its keeping me company during this long, long, long, long, LONG night.
i feel very tired. should i go for dee's party on sunday? or should i catch up on sleep. i think i need sleep.
hey look! my hands shaking.
maybe im hungry. oh yes, i didnt eat lunch today. ahaha! cos i went to see mrs poh about the spreadsheet thingy and it took quite long.
but i doubt its cos of that! ahah. lunch was like.. lets see, a whole thirteen hours ago. thats more than half a day.
wow.!
okay. wonder who actually read this. haha.. poor you.

When your soul is tired and your
heart is weak
Do you think of love as a one way street
Well it runs both ways,
open up your eyes
Can't you see me here,
how can you deny

Every endless night has a
dawning day
Every darkest sky has a shining ray
It takes a lot to laugh as your
tears go by
But you can find me here till your
tears run dry
It's a private emotion that fills
you tonight
And a silence falls between us
As the shadows steal the light
And wherever you may find it
Wherever it may lead
Let your private emotion come to me


2006-11-23 - if i can dream.
2006-11-14 - I'd steal the sun from the sky for you.
2006-11-07 - this is the way it should be
2006-11-02 - every second, dripping off my fingertips
2006-10-26 - badly trained and nothing more...